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On the one hand, I'm disappointed. On the other hand, something different happened in my life. So that's a positive thing, I suppose.

I haven't written a blog post in quite some time, and I'm thinking that I should pick up the habit again. So many things have happend in the last few months, but what prompted me to write again: I set up a first date with a girl. And she stood me up. Yeah.

I'm not sure what to think yet, so I'll just lay out the sequence of events.

• I started with this girl on Coffee Meets Bagel.
• it seems like we had a lot in common. We exchange messages for about a week or so.
• I suggest that we meet, and we arrange a time to continue our chat in person.
• naturally, I'm equal parts nervous, and excited about the prospect of dating again.

I literally haven't been on a date since 2011.

That being said, I still haven't been on a date since 2001.

Anyway, continuing on:

• we decided to meet in South Bay.
• I take the train down. Altogether, it took about an hour.
• I arrived early, and I decided to go site in a nearby park for a little bit.
• we had decided to meet a nearby cafe, so I head there, order and sit down.
• I text her and say, "Hey, I'm here!"

And....

her: "I'm so sorry - I actually had something come up with work"

me: "Sorry to hear! Let's meet another time?"

her: "yes, sorry!"

me: "good luck with work!"

So that's what happened. Now, on to my thoughts: I really don't know what to think honestly.

• I'm a little disappointed. Feelings of self-doubt creeping in.
• that being said, I understand work happens.
• I wish she had let me know before-hand.

I'll just leave it at that. Everything will be alright, I think